|Wednesday, November 7
Updated: November 9, 1:46 PM ET
Odom breaks down while discussing suspension
LOS ANGELES -- Los Angeles Clippers star Lamar Odom, under suspension for violating the NBA's anti-drug policy for the second time in eight months, tearfully admitted Wednesday that he used marijuana.
Odom, the Clippers' leading scorer last season, was to serve the second game of a five-game suspension Wednesday night when the Clippers faced the Memphis Grizzlies.
In a move designed to free up a roster spot, the Clippers placed Odom on the suspended list, meaning he will miss an extra game since players put on the suspended list must miss five games after that happens.
Thus, the Clippers will be able to fill Odom's spot on the roster, and plan to do so by activating forward Harold Jamison on Thursday, when he's eligible to come off. Jamison began the season on the injured list.
Odom will then be eligible to return Nov. 18 against the New York Knicks at Staples Center rather than two days earlier against Toronto.
The NBA does not disclose information about the testing or treatment of any player in the program, but Odom volunteered the information following the Clippers' shootaround with his coaches and teammates present.
"I chose to experiment with marijuana, that's why I'm here right now," he said after stating he doesn't have a drug problem. "I'll be receiving counseling, that's not rehab."
Odom, who turned 22 Tuesday, choked up within seconds of addressing reporters, and was quickly comforted by teammates.
"I'm here today because I failed," Odom said. "I'm disappointed in myself. I don't want to put anybody in this position again. I'm sorry, but I don't want everybody to feel sorry for me."
After his first five-game suspension was announced March 7, Odom vowed he would never again miss a game in such a manner.
"I made the mistake once, now it's twice," he said. "I feel like I can get through it, I know I can get through it, I'm strong enough. Nothing I can say is going to make people believe me, I've just got to do it."
Tearful throughout the 13-minute news conference, Odom said he didn't expect the kind of support he received "because I've been through this before."
"This is genuine support," Clippers forward Elton Brand said. "We came here collectively as a group because we want to support him, he needs us right now. We're going to continue when he comes back to support him, also."
Clippers coach Alvin Gentry also said the support for Odom would not waver.
"He's a good person, and everybody here believes that," Gentry said. "We love him because of who he is, and that's the way it's going to be. We believe in him, we believe in him until the day we die.
"All we can do is help any way we can. We've got to make sure he's better as a person, the basketball part is irrelevant right now. When Lamar comes back, he's going to be a good player."
Odom said some time away from basketball might be beneficial.
"I don't know, maybe it will give me some time to think, get past this," he said. "You can't dwell on the past, you have to go through times of pain to get to times of joy, I guess."
The Clippers, who brought a 1-3 record into Wednesday night's game, beat Atlanta 109-86 without Odom on Monday night. They went 1-4 while he was on suspension last season.
In his team's first three games this season, all losses, Odom made only 16 of 52 shots (30.8 percent) while averaging 14.0 points, 10.0 rebounds and 3.7 assists in 38.7 minutes.
The Clippers chose Odom with the fourth overall selection in the 1999 draft.